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What do u ask for when everything was eventually going back on the right track? You should start study like seriously.

So, it was day 1 after exercising. Tho it doesn't even reach half hour (near), but i guess it will show me the result that i wanted after i continuing for coming weeks. But why do i feel more hungry after exercising? I feel like haven't eaten for decades. Hopefully this is just beginning.

择你所爱，爱你所择。
平淡其实就是最幸福的了。

思则气结 久思伤脾 情志不舒 扰乱神明。
研读古书也很好，因为需要大量的专注力。
；孙子兵法

没心没肺的。
有时是挺好的。


不要多心了。
是自怨自艾够了吗？



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Second day of schooling

Aha, so hi again.

            Was in super bad mood earlier on cause the tutorial class I registered doesn’t match my schedule. We have class on this morning and the tutorial class registration started on 9am, so Kelly asked her friend to help us register. However, her friend didn’t contact her till 9.30am. So after our class ended at 9.30am, we went to faculty to have a look. And yeah, her friend was late, all the perfect time were taken. I was forced to join Wednesday class. I have no class on Wednesday intially but now, here’s an hour damn tutorial class. I am fine with class on Wednesday, but oh, my petrol. Ughhhhhhhh. I was super mad about this.

            I rush back home after the registration of tutorial class. Mum opened the door for me, the moment she saw me, she was like, Did you just fall into the septic tank? By the way, I have no idea why do I drive faster and faster these days. When I was on my way back to home just now, I was surprised by the meter showed, it came to 100km/h. And, I used to run the red light more often. Hopefully I will not receive any summons. Guess that it’s because of my impatient towards the school reopen. Anyway, I just decided to have some more meaningful plans on Wednesday to make the Wednesday tutorial class more reasonable and valuable.

            And now, my mood changed cause of an interesting lecturer, my human resource management lecturer. He is so funny. At first, I didn’t expect that he is young, cause by the name, Datu Razali, it seems like an old ustaz, stuff like this. I thought an old man with songkok will enter the class. But thanks that it is actually not and indirectly, he saved my grad for this subject. My grad for every subject is closely related to the lecturer. Once I found out he is an interesting man, I will never skip the class, not even once, and automatically I will fall in love with the subject and eventually get good grades. This is true and was proven with my Entrepreneurship subject for last semester.

            I love lecturer that insert with many examples during the class, either that he actually went through it or not. So this happens in Mr. Datu Razali. Through his mouth, it feels like I also went through the same thing. This also applicable to my friends. I love how my friend shares their story to me, it literally feels like I am participating their life. Sometimes I speak less, and people will say that I am not in mood. Please don’t judge me wrong, it is just that I really enjoy much on listening stories. Thanks for those who did so. Thanks.

            Back to Mr Datu, he amazed me lot. He doesn’t only look young but young enough also to understand us, our generation. He knows what does cross finger means! And he knows Chinese, I mean the true Chinese. He knows how to write the Chinese words and use proverbs too!! It is so wow. And at the same time, it motivates me to continue on my Korean. I was about to give up on Korean actually. However, if Mr Datu can learn Chinese well, so why not me at my Korean? Though I am a pure Chinese, but still I think that Chinese is one of the most difficult language in the world. As Mr Datu can overcome this, why not me in the only 24 hangul? Well, keep this up, lol.

            Back to Mr Datu, before he ended the class, he said he is giving us a pop up quiz, everybody was like 矬咧等 (Hokkien). Ended up, he gave us a personal test, more to self-personality test. Some of the results surprised me tho. When I think back twice, it is reasonable too for those changes, as we are always growing up, isn’t it? Mr Datu also said, everything took 5 years to change. For every 5 years, your life stage changed. It is true, I was once stuck in my previous relationship, it’s been 5 years ago. Now, I guess, I’ve walking out from the past.

            And I’ll be having meeting this Thursday. Sigh.

            As Chinese proverbs says, there’s gold in the book, “书中自有黄金屋”， it will never went wrong if you read more, so please get back to books!

Finally, thanks for always there for me, after knowing I am into something. It is awkward for me to address you as dear, but thanks, dear bro.

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开学开学

刚开学就是这样，非常得空，坐立难安。开学了再追戏会觉得很不应该，睡午觉的话等下晚上又睡不着，明早上课又是一场跟周公的战争。叹叹叹。我应该又要好好拟一下我的计划了。

今天去看了我的房间，还好是两人房。真的有给妈妈讲中，我又突然不想住学校了。我想那间就是我空档时去小睡一下而已。再看怎样先吧，有一间房毕竟是不会错的，反正我都快搞不懂自己了。

关于我的活动其实我很担心不能如期进行，我没有想到她还没去请人。我是不觉得她也有庆祝农历新年啦。我很怕到时又随便请学校讲师来草草了事。拜托一切顺利吧。

计划中的晨跑咧。不要那么懒好吗，动起来动起来。

是啊，老鼠也都忘了。

细细斟酌吧。

我要慢慢地征服

你不喜欢我，我更讨厌看到你，丑八怪！

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音乐

歌，若不听倒不觉得缺了什么；但一旦开始了，就停不下来了。

每个歌手都代表着一个故事。

1. 蔡依林

她是我人生中知道的第一个流行曲歌手，因为爸爸不知道为什么在我八岁那年忽然买了她的翻版cd给我，于是我就开始喜欢她。后来我觉得我对她的喜欢，并不是因为她是蔡依林，仅仅只是因为她是我第一个接触的歌手。蔡依林早期的歌很好听，后来就还好了。但后期她的唱功已经超越了早期至少一千倍。

2. 周杰伦

在上中六之前，我都很不喜欢周杰伦。因为他劈腿蔡依林，以前就是那么天真。后来因为身边的朋友开始去接触周杰伦。周杰伦的歌都是写得非常好的，唱功就一般般。方文山真的很厉害。他的歌都很有意义，有些还要听几次才听得出。他的创作才子真的不是浪得虚名。

3. 林俊杰

林俊杰就代表了前男友。我以前真的不喜欢林俊杰。后来因为他我开始去接触他。爱情真的很伟大。我还是不喜欢他后期的好多歌都很高亢地表达。他声音很有磁性，是一把非常好听的声音。不要唱得如此高亢难道不可以吗？像你有没有过就很舒服啊。

4. 蔡旻佑

蔡旻佑则是代表上一段恋情。我和前男友在一起的时候，他刚出新专辑，那时都在听他的歌。他那时的歌很符合那时的我们。所以现在若再听回那些歌就会情景再现，就会痛。

蔡旻佑最近有出新歌，蛮好听的。

5.  萧敬腾

蛮后期才追萧敬腾的。追的程度已经要去看他演唱会了。但是去不成，下一次一定要去到。萧敬腾的声音让我深深着迷。他是唯一一个无论长发或短发都很好看的男生，也是到目前为止我觉得穿西装最好看的一个。穿西装演绎真的很老派，但在他身上却是无比地舒服。萧敬腾其实也不是帅，他就是非常有魅力。

6.  Jason Mraz

他则是代表了一段说不出口喜欢的遗憾。他是我第一个去研究的西方歌手。才发现原来英文歌曲中也有不喧哗，没有很多背景或和声的歌。

7.  乐团

我个人是喜欢苏打绿。他写的歌也非常好，非常有意思。但是很多人受不了青峰的声音，我是蛮喜欢的啦。

朋友中好多人喜欢五月天，我却没有太多的感受。

MP魔幻力量是我近期蛮喜欢他。他们唱功也还好，歌却确实很不错。他是目前为止第一个玩电音的男团。静静的情歌也写得深入民心。

最近在ising玩得不亦乐乎。解了唱歌的瘾。smule 则是可以跟陌生人合唱的。蛮新鲜好玩的。故人那天听我这么说，说我变了。以前不曾这样。
是啊，又谁会一直一成不变。你以为你了解，但也只是你以为。

明天情人节啊，我家却 open house 哈哈。才发现我请的朋友都是男生，哈哈哈。

Astro 最近一直播到崔始源演的电影。他实在是帅呆了。破风原来是林超贤的作品，难怪那么好看。颜值高，编剧佳，拍摄手法又棒。

你喜欢的我，是现在你看到的这个我，还是因为我就是我？

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黑暗面

退而求其次—你若安好，一切便好。

其实也没有非要那么矫情，是你太为赋新词了。

你以为你喜欢橙色，蓝色却悄悄地占据了你的世界。

都一直不断在变哪，你却还在沉淀。

你爱我吗？

但你有什么资格说爱。

爱和现实相比，马上黯然失色。

太多憧憬，太多幻想，太多的不切实际。

所有的信誓旦旦，都会因岁月流逝得到答案。你以为永恒不变的，终究会显得无知。不变的只是你的自以为是。

爱情，亲情，友情都是如此。

我需要更多的理智。

我真的很怕我的喋喋不休对你而言什么都不是。

于是你在痴痴地盼。没把人盼回来，却把人盼老了。

是可以难过和堕落，但不会有人在乎。

是还没准备好开学，但若再不开学，我就会往深渊无止尽地往下掉。

号外

不一定帅就是王道，魅力也很让人销魂好吗。

没想到周兴哲的现场会唱得那么好，林宥嘉还是一激动就会失控。

从前，你是比较偏向女歌手的，现在却都几乎清一色是男歌手了。再嚷嚷说永恒啊。

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