读后感

两天看完挥霍了。虽然有些很废，但是我要称赞藤井树。记忆中藤井树的书不会让我怎么动容，但是这次我看得笑出泪来，也大概了解了台湾的地理位置。在作品中出现铐盃和干是不是台湾作家的特色?刀大的作品是看什么类别才会出现那些字，但是挥霍中，这些字出现得还挺频密的哦。刀大的故事总清楚交待结局，我看完了挥霍都不懂国纶和婉燕到底有没有在一起，不是我笨，是根本就没交待。而辞海才要去找燕子。藤井树的作品没有很明确的结局，感觉还可以写好多续集。但是我很感动得是藤井树坚持他爱音乐，随书还附送他的自创曲。他竟然那么用心去找band跟去录音室做出来。太有心了!!我也很有心去听啊。但是我想说，你还是好好写书就好了，歌唱这条路没有那么适合你，哈哈哈哈。我没有后悔买这本书。

写书真的不简单，所以一本书卖20多块是非常合理的，虽然我比较喜欢下载看免费书。我想接下来我要开始看英文小说了。我用两天干掉挥霍，那英文书应该就两个月吧?哈哈哈哈

没有天哪有地
歌词都这样唱了。人们只会先想高的才注意到低的。人们会说，天地，不会说地天。

干讲什么道理，哈哈哈哈哈哈

我很认真地要去找工作了，不去澳洲了。大学毕业后才去吧。

回到爱以前吗?

回到爱以前双星终于做了。魔鬼排长还是很帅。故事很凄美。海林和希唯的演技还不够纯熟，看了没有很大的感触。但是这部戏都用我最喜欢的歌来当插曲。首先是王大为的主题曲，然后第一首的插曲是苏打绿的再遇见!!我超激动。然后是梁文音的分手后不做朋友为片尾曲兼插曲。我希望我有耐心去追这部戏，哈哈哈。

今天没有找工作。应该6月会去澳洲，所以不找了。就好好计划时间表，好好充实下个月吧。

Ann 被新加坡的国立大学录取了。我很嫉妒。现在才发现在考试前我根本就没有很明确要自己拿怎样的成绩，没有目标，就不会成功，共勉之-- 所以现在不要怨，只能怪自己不努力。考前觉得有3分多一点就好，拿了成绩才知道可以吃大便了。

若可以选，你要选择回到爱以前还是爱以后？

你曾经紧紧地把我拥在你怀中，我要如何去假装，你没有爱过。--梁文音

但是我连温度，悸动和心跳都忘了。

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干弄这个华语那么难 ==

电脑拿去reformat, 全部data 不见了，要重新再适应这个电脑

人真是呆着闲着就会变懒。我在遇到种种找工作的阻碍后就停止继续下去了，直到昨天柔柔提醒我上大学的生活费才让我顿悟。明天就去找工作吧，到最后真的不行，我看我也接受在麦当劳了。可是麦当劳真的很恶心啦，油烟又闷热，还要以礼待人，我耐性又不好。看着办吧。

我真的是懒到连戏都懒惰看。今天终于觉悟了。买了不看也浪费。宜花和都民俊的恋情那么唯美，认真就输了。

妈妈嫌我头发太长，我说想留到屁股，她呵斥我。不是我的头发吗?我终于又开始喜欢上我的长头发了

从买化妆品开始，我就知道我再也不是那个连冲凉都抱着故事书看的女孩了。那么陌生，那么恐怖。

这种浅眼线真的很难化，但是我竟然还是会了。我觉得化眼线太浅不如不化，没什么差，太多又觉得很不自然。戴假睫毛就让眼睛瞬间明亮+加大，但是很假。

浅眼线

连双眼皮都自己出来了

厚的

下次就好好化眼窝吧。我基本的道具都买了。怎么会变这样

乱语

幸福就是爸爸帮你买了一份报纸

还有啊姨对你的爱

幸福真的很简单。能在mamak店吃roti canai 是幸福，能有知己在深夜出去也是幸福。

我就是被周围的人宠坏了。小时候爸爸妈妈疼，长大后朋友也依我。看看这种臭脾气，就是这么多人宠出来的，怎么改啊?

不知道为什么就是不想睡，明天起身一定又会咒骂自己。我的身体啊。

有双眼皮有比较好看咩



我的减肥，叹气。我想再失恋多一次就会成功吧。我每天都有在挨饿，但是还是没有瘦。人家减肥有算什么卡路里的，我没有，只觉得一直饿就会瘦。这几天吃东西都让肚子在饿不死，却不饱的状态。然后现在三点，我很饿。我的身体啊。

很怕再碰爱情小说，怕又沦陷。买了藤井树的挥霍很久，一直不敢看。这就是都市病，缺爱多愁善感寂寞综合症。

Mumble

The power of love from star is really huge. Super. I didn't have my breakfast and dinner today. Well, can pieces of biscuit consider as dinner? By the way, haven't really crave for a long time. And actually, i am not that hungry. Yeap, not that. What i want to say is, the belief that what you have is really important. If you believe you can do it, you will success eventually. I believe i am not hungry even i didn't have my dinner, ended up it's true as what my mind told me. ( This is just beginning, just see that u can stand for how many nights without having dinner right, don't hao lian) But, it's no doubt that the belief in a person is really important. Anyway, I also started to love my samsung phone as i always crab it for being too lag. It's just because the phone in that drama went so smooth. MAGIC right, this is just incredible. Oh, 393 started to repeat the love from star. Was about to swear. Can't you repeat it before i buy the disc?!!!?

Make many phone calls to seek job today. Finally found a company that not really far from house, went for the interview. The woman let me fill in a form at first. The form even asks my parents details. ( What? ) After i complete the form, the woman started to give me some information about the job. She asked if my maths okay. I just to lazy to answer i got an A in SPM. She also asked if my language is okay. I was like, please la, language is just a piece of nut to me right. But i just answer her, "Quite okay." She continued, besides being as a clerk, i have to carry the cabinet too if some general workers were on leave. I have to saw the wood too. I was like wtf? The woman don't even look at my resume. She don't bother my beautiful achievements and results. WELL. Now i know. Always thought that to find a job is as easy as ABC. Well well well. At least i gain experience huh. I know how the real world works. Never mind, i will not give up. I will get rid of this jobless state. Result doesn't mean anything, never be proud of it, people don't give a shit tho.

My little cousin is in a relationship. He had video call with his girl before bed and posted on insta. So envy. Technology really advance these days. Unlike our days. We even have to waste our money on phone calls. Feel like my cousin was to young to be in a relationship, after i recall back, he is 16 now. Wait, 16? Hehe.

You are pretty who you are. This is just shit. Real world judge you at first by your appearance. It's okay if you are not pretty, it's beyond your control. But your body figure, you are responsible to it. So, please do not stop your diet plan okay? Actually i doubt, cause i didn't lose weight even i do not had my dinner. I mean last time la. I did lose weight, but just 1kg. Zzzz. So i suffer this much, 1kg is what i have for my reward? I WANT TO BE LIKE SONG YI EHHH. Well, just see then. :)

I hate you bro, you said you will phone me!!!!!!!!! You better don't kao peh with me if you break up with your partner. I mean just IF.

Ngeh, it's actually okay if we don't contact. Should have like this.

Still continue having night mare. I think this situation will continue until i enter uni. *sigh*

牢骚篇

终于开始看星星的你，disc 1 坏了== 还要去换很显。颂伊瘦瘦弱不经风的样子很好看呢，好想也瘦成那样。但是胃可能先穿洞吧？不想追戏就是这样，戏里的饰品等都想模仿。我真的要控制一下了，我的饰品真的多到要没地方放了。

好讨厌穿长裤，很hip咧，但是要去应征工作，我的裙又全部不过膝

终于会想到我了吧？你最好没事只是纯粹想聊天，姐不要当垃圾桶

其实你是真心还是假意，人家会感受得到的

有一种默契，就是你不找我，我也不找你

It's april!!

First of all, i have summited my university form!! At last! So happy! Feel like finally relieve from a burden, hahhaaa. By the way, i  just chose four universities for the section B. Hmm. Is that okay? Well, just hand this all to fate. Do not think anymore once you''d decided, if not you will not get rid of this nightmare forever. I had enough nightmare for the past few nights. I did pray for blessing from guan yin before i start to fill in the university form, u may say i am being superstition, but i feel more calm after praying. I knew guan yin will choose the best for me. And hey, after praying, my internet speed become much faster which makes me complete the form easier. :)

April, i told myself must find a job by April, but my mum seems to be happy that i am in jobless state currently. That's the point, she do not allow me to drive and not willing to bring me to seek a job. Naw, i will make sure myself to escape from being jobless. Blek.

Miss Nee phoned me just now, but my stupid phone couldn't receive the call. Ended up i phone back to her. Ngeh, one hour talk, using mama''s phone. I think she will probably kill me once she receives the bill. Hahaha. She reminds me something. I asked her to read more story books since she is so free now. She answer me that, " I can tell you, the story books that i read are not less than you." Well, really wake me up. Yeap, please don't always think that you are great. PLEASE REMEMBER. Humble please.

Lastly, please salute those girls who putting make up routine. Tried to make up again today. Waliao, it's a big project weihh. I couldn't stand this just once. Imagine those girls!! ROUTINE weihh. After that, you need to wipe off the make up again. I think that to clear all those cosmetic off from your face is harder than putting on. After i wipe off those cosmetic, waliao, I feel like did i put that much on my face? I need to wipe like about 6 times only those cosmetic totally clear from my face. By the way, I look different after i put on the foundation, just foundation already make the difference. Maybe it's because i am ton, hmm. And, I have many pimples. The foundation just cover everything and makes my face perfect. Hahaha. I did want to share the difference before and after, but i look so fat on that picture, so maybe next time. Hihi. I also make a double eyelid on my eyes, by using the eyelid glue to stick it. I still need to practice more to draw a beautiful eyeline.

Big difference?

Haven't write my diary for months. I am sorry. Don't know why used to blog at here recently. It's 3am now. I promise myself to change my lifestyle back to normal. I did it yesterday, sleep at 12am. Will do it back tomorrow right, let me escape for a day. I guess it's time to stop. Print the university confirmation letter before go to bed. xoxo

Well, u said i am in a relationship. With who? You? Haha.